042: Wishlist

[livingmyths]

[Not exactly intended for anything more than her private journal, but somehow out on the Network.]

What would I like... oh, lots of things.

Things you can't actually get like nobody hungry anymore or hurt or with no safe place to go. Or like taking away Mat's hurt or Tony's worries or making sure everyone's happy and not sad anymore.

Things that are silly like seeing a double rainbow or finding a real four-leaf clover or having one of the deer come up and eat out of my hands. Or finding out I'm magic.

Easy things like curling up in my bed and being warm and having enough food and watching the stars through the roof. Or listening to music or dancing.

Selfish things like wanting to have more of the good sex thing. Mat kind of said there was more than what we did and since what we did was so good I want to try more and more. I wonder if it's the same good thing with other people or only with him and I wonder if I'd be brave enough to try and find out. Or having Iron Man - no, I can't even say it here.

And impossible things. Like getting Bunny back even though I know he's gone for good gone. Or having my dad love me. Or at least not hate me.

Or having my mom not die. Having the bad man not come or her escape or me find a way to stop him.

Those are the things I'd like.

But I'll be happy with my wonderful house and having people who care about me. That's more than I've ever had and it would be selfish to want more than that.

Comments

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

I'm very busy, but very good. Thanks for asking. How about you?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'm good.

Embarrassed 'cause some people read things I didn't think they could, but good.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Well, that's how a lot of the curses go.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I know, but I didn't even pay attention to it till it was too late.

Oh well.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Exactly, try not to be bothered by it. That would only make people tease you more.

So what do you want for Christmas? And are you going to put up a tree?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh, I don't want anything for Christmas. I already have so much!

A tree? I... don't think so.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Well, that's too bad. I already plan to get you a little something.

Why not?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Abby's helping me find stuff for people.

I guess... I wouldn't know what to do with it. And I don't have any things. And trees maybe should stay outside. I don't want one to die because of me.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

That's nice of her.

Why don't we find one in the forest and decorate it out there?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe with things for the animals? That might be fun!

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Definitely with seeds and things like that for the animals.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'd like that! Very much!

I'll have to make a list of all the things I need to get!

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Great, then we can go shopping for them.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

You'd go shopping with me for them?

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Of course, it will be fun.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'd like that!!

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Holiday shopping is an important part of the whole shopping experience.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I've really never done much shopping at all.

And never holiday stuff.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Well now you can. You'll really like it.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I don't know. There's lots of people and stuff.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but they're happy people. It's nice to see so many people smiling.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I.. I get scared sometimes if there's too many. So many voices in my head.

Will you get mad at me if I have to leave?

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Of course not, Rain. If you have to leave let me know and I'll fly the car close by and we can get away fast.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Okay then, that would be good.

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Maybe we should start working on helping you control things.