060: Musings

[livingmyths]

I did everything the deities wanted. I hope they'll let us be for a little while.

Tony... doesn't remember me and that's really really hard and makes me very sad.

But the sun is shining and the birds are out and three deer were in my front yard this morning to remind me of how beautiful things are.

I usually go into the Library at least for a while, but today I think I'm just going to sit in the sun at the front of my house and watch the animals and read a book and have tea. That will make me feel better.

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[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I see.

I wish I'd been able to choose my own name.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

You don't like it?

You could go on your own vision quest.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

It wouldn't change a thing--

I could, but where I come from, we don't really believe in vision quests or having one's ancestors give one a name.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Most people don't where I'm from either.

Except on the rez. But I couldn't stay there.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

You keep saying 'the rez'. You'll have to forgive me, but what does that mean?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh. Sorry. I'm half Native American - Lakota, actually. And most of them live on reservations where the government shipped them off to live when they were trying to get rid of all of them.

They usually call it living on the rez.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Now I understand a bit better--thank you. And it's still unfortunate that you couldn't stay there.

Still, at least you're content in the City and its forests.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I know. I think my grandmother was the only person who wanted me at all.

Oh well.

Yes, I am here and I have my house and the forest and the City and friends for the first time really ever and I'm happy.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

And for that, I'm glad for you.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I hope you don't find The City too terrible.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I've endured it this long, so I think I can carry on a bit longer.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe you'll grow to like it?

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I doubt that, but I can at least endure it.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Well, I suppose that's something.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

And at least the company is pleasant.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Do you have lots of friends here?

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I have some friends, but a greater number of people I just enjoy speaking with--and the Network is usually interesting.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

It is. I do enjoy reading it.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

And being out in the forest as you are, I suspect you're less involved in some of the crises we've had here in town. That must be pleasant.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

It does seem less dangerous here. But I work at the Library and I spend lots of time there.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Still, I think more and more that I ought to visit the forests some time soon.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Well, you're welcome to come see me sometime.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'll remember that.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Good. I'd be glad to show off my little house.