080: Apologies

[livingmyths]

Tony, I'm so sorry I didn't make it to work today. I meant to be there and then I lost track of time and then it was too late. I promise I'll make it up later.

*sigh* And now Sam has me all worried about apologizing and why I'm really doing it and... and my head hurts again.

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[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

It got so I couldn't figure out what he meant at all. Or what I meant even.

But he has me all nervous about apologizing because he says we only do it to make ourselves feel better and that's not right, I guess, but I don't think that's why I do it. I don't know.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

I know the feelin'.

Some people do apologize to make themselves feel better, but that ain't you, Miss Rain.

Then there's people who say it 'cause they think that's what they should do even though they don't feel anything. An' that ain't you, either.

Most people do it right, when they think they've wronged someone. Yeah, it might make them feel better, but it's for the other person, too.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Well, I know you made me feel better, Bobby. Thank you.


[ooc: And now I flee to bed. SP?]

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Cleanin' up Winchester confusion, my specialty.

Any time, kiddo. Any time.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

How are you doing?

I remember dancing with you when I was cursed. It was very nice.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

I'm doing well. And you were a wonderful dancer - wouldn't mind taking you fer a spin uncursed sometime.

Keeping myself busy - same as everyone else here - you'll probably see more of me at the Library soon, there's a kid who's taking some, well, lessons from me an' we'll be hitting the stacks before long.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh! I'd dance with you any time. I'm not sure I'm as good as she was though. I'm a lot more shy.

Well, if you're in the Library be sure to say hi. I'm there most days! What kind of lessons are you teaching?

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

An' I'm a lot more clumsier.

I will, think you an' Dawn might get along. I'm teachin' her about Japanese demonology. Kinda dry, but surprisingly useful.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Well, we'll have to dance then!

Oh! Japanese mythology. I love that!

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Demonology, not... It's a fascinating subject, ain't it?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I love old myths and legends - from any culture.

Funny, though, here it seems like a lot of them are true.

Back home I always thought a lot of them were true - like the war between demons and angels- but everyone told me I was crazy.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Well, what one world calls myth, another calls real life. An' I doubt there's many people here that would call you crazy.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

No. Nobody does. A little broken, maybe, but not crazy.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

We're all a little broken, maybe that's why we're all here.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

You think so?

It would be nice to think that.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Sure, makes as much sense as any other reason and it keeps us all on even ground, too.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I don't think I've ever felt on equal ground with anyone.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Well that's a damn shame. I'd wager you know just as many, if not more myths and legends than I do, 'specially workin' at the Library.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

You think so? Maybe I do.

I always listened really well whenever anyone told stories about that stuff and I read it like crazy. I like knowing about it all.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

It's a good thing to know. Sometimes you learn more about a people listenin' to th' stories they tell instead of any other way.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I guess you could say I was always good at that. Listening and remembering.

I never thought of it as being something I was good at before.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Listening and remembering are hard skills to learn, Miss Rain. You should be proud that you do it so well.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Really? I guess I never thought of it that way.

I guess I thought that other people just didn't care enough to remember. Not that it was hard.

[71-chevelle.livejournal.com]

Some don't. That you do, is an additional thing to be proud of. It's hard to care about people.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh, I care about pretty much everyone. Especially people who don't seem like they have anyone else who cares much about them.

That... that's something to be proud of, too?