011: Embarrassed

[livingmyths]

I'm feeling really pretty foolish today, but, judging from the other things I saw, at least I wasn't the only one and I was luckier than some people.

Abby, thank you for taking such good care of me. And please forget everything I said about - well, about practically everything.


Mr. Stark, I'm really sorry I didn't show up to work yesterday. I know it was supposed to be my first day and all, but I... really wasn't myself. I'm at the library right now, but if you still want me I can come today.


Anybody else, well, I'm kind of gonna be working in the most out-of-the-way places I can in the library.


And is it really true that Ianto's gone? He was so nice to me. I'm gonna really, really miss him, if it's true.

Comments

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

It's going to get cold soon.

Ever think about a flat?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

They... kind of scare me. I don't want to be trapped inside with no where to go and most of them only have one door. Especially not if I'm alone.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

Maybe you could get a dog.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I like dogs. Just, I don't know if I'd be good at taking care of one.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

How are you going to live in the winter?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to make some extra money so I can build a little place out there. Where nobody will find me.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

Is someone after you?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe?

There's lots of bad people and sometimes they find you even when you do everything right. Even if they don't know you.

I get panicky when I think about being trapped somewhere. I've been trapped before and -

....

Sorry. I just needed a second to try and relax.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

Sure thing. Take your time.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I get scared kind of easily.

At night I like to be able to be outside where I can see the stars. in the woods. That's the safe place. That's where my mom told me to go.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

Can't argue with your mum.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

So... do I know you? My name is Rain. Well, for right now I'm Ocean Rain, but usually I'm just plain Rain.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

No, just commenting where I'm probably not really wanted.

I'm Sirius Black.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I like that name. Like the dog star. I know lots of stories about that.

Hi, Sirius Black.

And it's okay for you to comment. I... I know I have to find some way to manage. Back in the other world we'd just move to somewhere warmer when it got cold. Can't really do that here.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

My mother had a bad sense of names. She named my brother Regulus Black.

Hi, Ocean Rain.

I heard it snows here. If you need any help, I'm about, yeah?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

She liked stars

My mother -

She picked good names for me. I just... I can't use them anymore.

Yeah, it snowed a while ago like crazy. I just stayed here. Ianto said it was okay.

Thank you. I can always use friends. Maybe you could come see me at the library sometime?

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

It's sort of family tradition.

I'll even bring Moony to meet you.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'd like that!

Who's Moony?

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

He's my best mate.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh!

It's good that you are here together. It's hard to be alone in a strange place.

I'm pretty used to it, but it's still hard.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

You'll like him, he likes books.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Then yes, I would!

Books are my best friends. They're the only things I can count on to be there.

[canisfidelus.livejournal.com]

He's exactly the same.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I think I would really like him then.

Either that or we'd make each other crazy!