0156: Accidental Video

[livingmyths]

Rain's taking advantage of a bit of a break in the clouds to dance on the roof top. It's sunny and she's happy and the Library loves her and all she wants to do is express her joy. her words come out in almost a song, straight from the heart and all a-whimsy.

"Over hill, over dale,
Through bush, through brier,
Over park, over pale,
Through flood, and on the roof,
Rain does wander everywhere,
Swifter than the moon's sphere;
And I serve the fairy queen,
To dew her orbs upon the green.
The cowslips tall her pensioners be:
In their gold coats spots you see;
Those be rubies, fairy favours,
In those freckles live their savours:
I must go seek some new books here
And sing a song into the Librar's ear.
Farewell, thou lob of spirits; I'll be gone:
Our queen and all our elves come here anon.

... Anon, anon, anon! I love that word!"

And there is more dancing!

Comments

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He blinks in surprise.]

You felt that?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She ducked her head.

I didn't mean to listen. Just sometimes I forget to try not to.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He watches her a moment then shakes his head.]

It's alright, Rain. I don't mind.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She looked up hopefully.]

Really? I don't ever, I don't like, pry, but sometimes if it's loud...

I can't let you feel what I feel if you ever want. I learned how to do that.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He rests his hand on her head gently.]

It's alright. I wouldn't have said that if I didn't mean it.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Okay then.

[She smiled and let her head rest on his shoulder for a moment as they danced.]

I forgot how nice this was. I pretty much always dance by myself.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He wraps an arm around her waist and leads her in the dance.]

I could probably find time to dance with you again sometime.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She smiled against his shoulder.]

I'd like that. And we'd both feel happy.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He nods at that.]

I think so too.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Thank you for coming to dance with me.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

You're welcome, Rain.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Is there anything I can do to make you happier?

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I never think about it.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'd like to make you happy.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

You're very kind, Rain.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I try. Lots of people here have been really nice to me.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

If they ever aren't, I'll do what I can to help you.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh, you don't have to.

I'm... I'm not such a good person really, so it's okay if people aren't nice to me.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

Rain...I know what bad people are like. You are not one of them.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I've done bad things, Aya. Before I came here. Lots of them.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He lifts her head to look at him.]

Rain, you are not the only one to have done bad things before coming here.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She had a hard time meeting his eyes.]

I know. And I know people say I'm not bad, but... I feel bad.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

[He closes his eyes then opens them again to look at her.]

I want you to feel how I feel about myself. Are you able to do that?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Rain frowned, then nodded.]

If you want me to, I can.

[onceaweiss.livejournal.com]

I want you to feel it.

[And he lets himself be open to it. How he feels dirty. How he hates himself. How he is one of the worst people in the world. How he doesn't deserve anything good. How he's ugly.

He doesn't know how else to let her understand that he knows how it feels or than to be honest about his feelings on this.]