067: (Not)Working Girl

[livingmyths]

I'm at the Library today even though technically I don't have to be here. But I do love it so and if it's a day I'm not scheduled to work then I don't feel guilty when I spend most of the time pulling books down and reading through them or going up on the roof to watch over the City and feel the wind in my hair.

That's where I am now. It's cold, but oh so beautiful, and I'm warm enough to get by and I have some food in my backpack so I can have a little roof picnic and lay back and watch the sky and pretend I'm like a bird and could go soaring against the clouds.

Though maybe I'm more like a mouse, liking to hide away in tiny spaces and watch without being seen, nibbling away at whatever I can find and maybe one day having a little mouse family of my own.

I just wish...

Oh, it doesn't matter.

Anyway, if anyone wants to come have a roof picnic with me I'm easy enough to find and I'd like the company!

Comments

[anoblemouse.livejournal.com]

Not all mice like to hide away in tiny spaces, my lady.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh, not all mice, I'm sure!

But I watch them sometimes, you know. In the woods?

I lay down on my stomach and stay as still as still as ever I can and I watch them. And they peek out, their little whiskers and nose twitching, looking to make sure they're safe, and then they dart over to whatever they've found, looking around and ever so cautious.

Just like me. Before. And sometimes still now.

[anoblemouse.livejournal.com]

You must be quite the hider for I've never seen you in the woods the times I've gone in there to speak with the wood mice. Do you go there often?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh, I live there!

Way deep in the woods in a little house (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v188/Maisfeeka/RainsHomedrawing.jpg) built into the side of a hill. It's easy to miss.

I do love it there. The front and roof are all open so I feel like I'm still living in the woods, but people don't worry that I don't have any shelter.

[anoblemouse.livejournal.com]

Do you not get lonely living hidden away so? Even when I lived in the woods, I had friends to keep me company.

Oh, pardon my rudeness, I have neglected to introduce myself. I am Reepicheep, Knight of Narnia and Chieftain of the Talking Mouse Squad. It is a pleasure to meet you, my lady.

[ooc: BRB Gotta wash this stuff out my hair.]

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh, I have a friend who stays with me, but anyway, how could I be lonely with the trees and the birds and the animals?

People... people can be hard to be with sometimes. Although no one here really seems to think I'm a freak.

Oh my goodness! I didn't realize I was talking to someone so important! I'm not much of anything myself. I'm just Rain. And I work at the Library and doing cleaning and organizing stuff for Tony Stark.

[anoblemouse.livejournal.com]

Excuse for me being ignorant, but what's a freak?

Indeed you are speaking to one important mouse. Your name is Rain? Like the weather? And what's a library?

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

There isn't anything wrong with being like a mouse.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I don't think so either.

But it doesn't sound quite as nice as being a bird who can fly away free.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

There's all different kinds of freedom.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Yes.

And sometimes the only place you can be free is inside your head - in your imagination.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Isn't that the truth.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

It would be nice if it weren't, but we don't always get what we want.

I feel mostly free here.

[i-themagician.livejournal.com]

Most people are a little like that, I think.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Are they?

I think sometimes that maybe we're all a lot more alike than we think.

[i-themagician.livejournal.com]

I think that most people just sort of want to go about their business and not make too many waves, despite any protests they may make to the contrary. There are exceptions, of course, but I don't know if those people can be so easily compared to another animal.

Of course we are. If all cats, mice, and dogs are similar, then it should follow that all humans are. It's merely more difficult to notice that when you are one.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I know I don't want to make waves. It's better just not to be noticed a lot.

Or when people are telling you're different and bad.

[i-themagician.livejournal.com]

Agreed.

That's true. Again, though, it helps to remember that it's difficult for those people to see how similar you actually are to themselves.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe. I wish they could see that.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

What do you wish?

Re: Private//Unhackable

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Thomas?

It's... it's stupid. Especially for someone like me.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

Wishes aren't stupid, Rain.

Re: Private//Unhackable

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

They are when you know you can't have them.

Then they just hurt.

Private//Unhackable

[prodigalvampire]

I get that.

So, what do you wish?

Re: Private//Unhackable

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

That... that someday maybe somebody would love me. That they wouldn't care how different I am or about the things I did. And that they wouldn't think I was too damaged or too crazy or... whatever.

Even though I am.

See? Stupid.

Just... please don't laugh.