Living Amid the Myths

Mat?

I won't be home tonight.

I'm staying at the Library.

I just didn't want you to worry.




[ooc: Rain's freaked out and hiding after this, but she's not about to admit it or come out. She just doesn't want Mat to worry.]

I'm at the Library today even though technically I don't have to be here. But I do love it so and if it's a day I'm not scheduled to work then I don't feel guilty when I spend most of the time pulling books down and reading through them or going up on the roof to watch over the City and feel the wind in my hair.

That's where I am now. It's cold, but oh so beautiful, and I'm warm enough to get by and I have some food in my backpack so I can have a little roof picnic and lay back and watch the sky and pretend I'm like a bird and could go soaring against the clouds.

Though maybe I'm more like a mouse, liking to hide away in tiny spaces and watch without being seen, nibbling away at whatever I can find and maybe one day having a little mouse family of my own.

I just wish...

Oh, it doesn't matter.

Anyway, if anyone wants to come have a roof picnic with me I'm easy enough to find and I'd like the company!

Tony's gone and Luke is gone and Leia and Mr. Winchester and... It's just...

It's not fair. Finally the ancestors let me have friends and then they take them away?

I know life isn't fair and I know things happen and there's nothing you can do and you need to just stop whining and get over them, but...

This hurts.

I never had friends before and maybe now I don't want any anymore if this is what is going to happen.

I can't go back to the beautiful house Tony and my other friends made for me. Not now.

Maybe later I'll be able to look at it and remember good things, but right now it would just be too painful.

Are any of my friends still here?