084: Rain, Rain, Rain

[livingmyths]

It's raining, raining, raining. And not the good kind of rain. It's cold and gloomy and I feel all unsettled inside.

And someone else bought poor Chuck at the auction even though I tried very hard not to let someone do that. I hope he comes back.

I keep looking over my shoulder, feeling like there's something there, like there's something scary right on the edge of my awareness or my memory or something. I don't know what it is.

I'm home now. I went to work at the Library this morning and stayed as long as I could, but when the rain started pouring down I went home before everything got washed out. Now I'm curled up on my bed watching the rain on the roof and thinking that this is just the kind of Rain and me that people don't like.

I don't blame them. I don't even like me like this.

Comments

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

That's a very noble thing to do Rain, I'm sure Chuck would have appreciated it.

I didn't mean to pry, but I say some of your conversation with Ianto and you mentioned the "bad men" again. Rain, has someone threatened you recently?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

If he comes back. He's gone.

Did I? Oh yes.

No, no one has threatened me. I just... I feel edgy and unsettled and I should always be ready in case they come back.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear that, Rain, were the two of you getting close?

Are they men from the City, or men from your world?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I... yes. But we shouldn't have been because he's... I can't fit in with his world, his life. But I still miss him.

I, they... they're bad. The Bad Men. They're from... I don't know. Bad places probably. And they'll get you if you're not careful. Or if you're not good. They can, they can hurt you. And do bad things. And kill you too.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

Rain, I'm sure that if he comes back, and if he wants you in his life, then that's between you and him - not the rest of his world.

...heavens, Rain, and you think they're here? If you're in danger we should do something.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe. I saw where he's from, though, what he likes and I... I'm not like them.

I... no. I don't know. I just... they're in my head, you know? I think?

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

People's tastes change, Rain, and perhaps in you he discovered something new he liked. You're quite likable, you know.

In your...part of your memories?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I know. Thats what everyone says.

I... maybe? They're not here. But they... they could be? I hear them. Sort of. But not really.

I just have to be careful!

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

All right, all right, we'll be careful. But you're not alone, not with the Network, and all of your friends. You don't have to be afraid.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'm not exactly afraid. Just... edgy.

Romana? If they catch me inside my head, how do I hide?

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

In your forest? Hmmm, I suppose you could climb one of your trees. What would you do in the real forest?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I can't jump off a roof here. They'd get me.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

The trees are tall, Rain, I doubt they'd be able to follow, and if you had to you could...jump...from there.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe I should go back to the Library. I'd get really wet, but that's okay. I could stay by the roof and then if they tried...

But maybe they're not even here.

Maybe I'm just really really crazy.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

I don't think you're crazy Rain, but I do think may be confusing your memory with what's around you today.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

My head's all stupid today.

It doesn't want to behave. Maybe it's the rain.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

Perhaps it is, perhaps you just need some rest it's been...a long week.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Maybe.

But I think I'll sleep under the bed just in case. Don't tell anyone. That way no one can find me.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

...I won't say a word.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Okay. Thank you.