0109: Venturing Out

[livingmyths]

I think I'm going to go see the mountain today. Maybe not climb it, but at least to see it.

Ianto, I'm sorry I haven't been at the Library. I just... haven't wanted to leave my house for a while. I'll try to go tomorrow. Maybe I could work at night when no one's there? Straightening up and reshelving and everything? Make up some time that way?

Anyway, I'm not going to venture too far from home today. Just the mountain and right back.

Mat? I want to do something really nice for you - for being so good to me, you know? I just need to think of what.

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[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Yes. It's just me in my head then without me having to try to keep others out.

This... he never forgets anything. Not anything at all.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

Exactly. That's part of what I loved about traveling through space.

Maybe he doesn't really think it's that bad.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I've never been in space. It must be nice.

He probably just feels sorry for me, which is worse.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Traveling through it was like nothing I'd ever felt before. I think that's one of the best things the Phoenix God gave me.

You won't know for sure though. Unless you've read his mind and do know.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I wish I could go.

I know him.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

I wish everyone could see it like I did.

I'm sorry. Embarrassing things happen all the time though.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

It would be nice.

I know they do. And I know maybe I'm being stupid, but I am the way I am.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

Hey it's not being stupid at all. Nothing wrong with being embarrassed, you have a right to have your own emotions.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

My feelings are sometimes all I've had that's mine.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

What do you mean?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Back home I lived on the streets and usually never had much more than the clothes on my back. Who I was and my feelings were about the only things people couldn't take away from me.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

That's awful.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

It's just the way things were.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

Doesn't make it nice and filled with fluffy bunnies.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

No. Not at all, I guess.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

If you'd like sometime I can take you up to the top of the mountain with me.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'd like that. Thank you.

[crazygoblins.livejournal.com]

Anytime! I'd like it too.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Good. Once I start leaving my house again for real, I'd like to do that.