livingmyths: (Open Smile)
Rain is at home - for the first time since the digging incident when her mind splintered. She looks happier than she's looked in a long time, but if you watch closely, something seems... off. She's clearly alone in the little house, but she's acting as if there's someone there - even sometimes walking as if she's holding the hand of someone rather taller than she is.

And if you listen carefully, you might just realize that she's talking to this person - someone obviously not in the house and, quite honestly, someone who's been gone from The City for quite a while.

She's made grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch, setting two plates, but seemingly unbothered that the second goes uneaten, still happily chattering away to the non-present Mat.


... And then after we clean up, maybe we could take a nap together? I feel like snuggling if you don't mind.

She giggles happily at his imagined response.

You never do, you're right, but I like to ask anyway and yes, we have to clean up first!



[ooc: Rain's mind fragmented even more after Arkady mentally pushed her hard enough to control her and make her dig at the alien ship. With some help from Arkady and Romana, she managed to reintegrate all the different selves that split off, but the main 'Rain', the last one to return wouldn't come back unless she could bring the Mat in her mind back with her since she's only ever felt not broken with him.

So... have Rain with her imaginary Mat. She thinks he's here and real, even though a small unlistened to part of her knows it's just pretend. If questioned she'll be firm about his presence, but sure that no one else can see him because he's just stepped out for a moment or has gone somewhere else to visit or work for a while.]
livingmyths: (Sad)
Bobby's gone. I'm going to miss him an awful lot. I already do.

And he left me this.

Gage

His name is Gage and I... I never had a pet or anything like that. Except our horse, but that's, well, Mat mostly takes care of her and he's responsible and good and I don't know if I can take good care of something like this. I really love him already, but what if I'm not any good at taking care of him and mess everything up? I don't want to hurt him 'cause I don't do things right.

I don't know if Bobby should have trusted me like this.
livingmyths: (Unsure)
I think I'm going to go see the mountain today. Maybe not climb it, but at least to see it.

Ianto, I'm sorry I haven't been at the Library. I just... haven't wanted to leave my house for a while. I'll try to go tomorrow. Maybe I could work at night when no one's there? Straightening up and reshelving and everything? Make up some time that way?

Anyway, I'm not going to venture too far from home today. Just the mountain and right back.

Mat? I want to do something really nice for you - for being so good to me, you know? I just need to think of what.
livingmyths: (Default)
Mat?

I won't be home tonight.

I'm staying at the Library.

I just didn't want you to worry.




[ooc: Rain's freaked out and hiding after this, but she's not about to admit it or come out. She just doesn't want Mat to worry.]
livingmyths: (Crazy hair blue)
I don't even need this curse to be happy or say why I'm happy.

I'm happy that I have such good friends like Mat and Tony and Abby and Chuck and Shin and Ianto and Barnabas and, oh, I can't even list them all!

And I'm so happy that my friends made me my beautiful house last year so I can be inside and still feel safe and I can lie on my bed and watch the stars or the wind blowing through the trees or the storms!

And I'm happy to be able to have the river and the forest and the trees and that I feel comfortable and safe there and I'm happy I get to work at the Library with all the BOOKS and that the Library likes me.

And that people like me here and I'm safe.

And so, so many other things!

ETA: And 'Mana! How could I forget to put in her? And our horse! See! I knew I'd forget all sorts of things and people, but they all make me happy even if I forget to put them here!
livingmyths: (Wee Rain orly)
I don't think I'm 'apposed to be all alone here.

They's 'apposed to be a big person with me.

I think somebody's gon' be in biiig trouble.

'least they's lots of books here and a big whole forest pracktally in the house.

Is Mommy or Daddy comin' home soon?
livingmyths: (Sad)
I am not sleeping. I don't care. I don't... the dreams...

They're too frightening.

If anyone wants to come and Not Sleep with me, they can. We can help keep each other awake.

0102:

Jul. 12th, 2009 11:07 am
livingmyths: (Open black)
Why hello there!

Seems like I've arrived at a very interesting time from what I can see on this device.

That said, where's the best place for a girl to find some fun?

And is there anyone around who'd like to have some fun with a girl?

Come on, you know you want to help a new girl out.

I don't bite - unless you ask really nicely...


[ooc: The Years That Never Were curse. Rain's father decided her abilities were something to be taken advantage of rather than hated. So have a mind-reading, con artist, amoral, semi-slutty, willing-to-do-what-it-takes-to-further-her-agenda Rain. Leaving in an hour or so till early evening, but wanted to get this up and will return tags when I get back!]
livingmyths: (Sad)
Rain's cowering as far up against a wall as she can, head ducked as if to avoid being hit. She clearly wants to cover her head with her arms, but doesn't - as if she's been warned not to.

No, I... People here say that's not true. I'm not bad.

She flinches away even more.

Please don't. Please.

She tries to slide unobtrusively along the wall towards the open front of the house where she can run, but it is as if an invisible person blocks her way, driving her toward the back of the house. Finally she slides down the wall, pulling her knees in tight and wrapping her arms around her head.

Okay, yes, YES, you're right!

I'm bad and ugly and stupid and a slut and it's all my fault, all of it. And I should never have run away. I was bad, I know, just please, please don't.
livingmyths: (Lost)
I am... very embarrassed. I do apologize to anyone I spoke with the other day. I... wasn't myself, even though I couldn't see that at the time.

Scotty... I am so very very sorry. I would never - I... I just hope you can forgive me.

And the two women I spoke to... I'm sorry so much if I disturbed or upset you.

Mr. Kirk... I'm really grateful for your kindness and the you didn't take me up on, well... what I was offering.



[Private to Mat]

Mat, you know how thankful I am that you came for me. It was... you were wonderful and cursed or not I have no regrets about any time I spend with you. You made it not a curse, but a... an amazing gift of a day. Thank you.

[End Private]




[Private to Thomas]

I am so sorry. I... you know I would never try to tempt you like that. I would never want to hurt you or try and make you do something wrong. I... I would understand if you couldn't forgive me, but still, I really hope you can.

I'd like to come see you, but again, I understand if you don't ever want to see me again.

[End Private]
livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
I guess I have to think about things some more. Some people who are really important to me don't want to call me River because Rain is really important to them.

So maybe... maybe Rain is good enough. I have to think about it for a while.


[Private to Harry]

Harry? Is he all right? Can I see him?


[Private to Thomas[

Thomas... This doesn't change the way I feel about you.

I just want to help. Please let me? At least keep talking to me.

I'll be watching Orion and pretending I'm with you.
livingmyths: (Listening intently)
I decided I am going to stay out by the river for a while longer, because I'm going to be River for a while instead of Rain, so I should watch myself a little more.

People can still come visit if they want. I'm not so hard to find.

Mat, if you're around I hope your friend is doing better.

Thomas, if you want to come watch the stars one night...

I think... I think being River for a while will be good for me. They're both water, but River sort of stays put even as she moves all over.

Anyway... just didn't want people to worry.

086: Tired

Apr. 27th, 2009 06:33 pm
livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
I'm sorry to anyone who might have looked for me at the Library today. I'm just home. My head has been... not good ... and I'm tired and Thomas and Mat think it's better that I just stay home till I'm feeling better.

I swear I'll work extra to make up for it later if the Bad Men don't find me - well... if I can.


[ooc: Whoops, just got this up and now must disappear for about an hour and a half or so. Also, Mat and Thomas Muns, hope you don't mind me saying they thought she should stay at the house. Didn't figure they'd want her near any roofs. ;) ]
livingmyths: (Open Smile)
I've really never lived in a place where there was lots of real winter. Not like here. And that means that I never really got to feel what it was like when Spring started.

It's amazing! The air smells different, flowers - crocuses - pop up in the strangest of places, buds are on the trees, robins are back - hopping in front of my house happily - and even the river seems... I don't know, happier maybe.

I can't believe that all my life I have missed something as wonderful as this!We should celebrate! Maybe have a picnic out here or something!

Tony? Did you plant the crocuses around my house so I'd see them in the spring?

Does... Does anyone know if Thomas is well? I miss him.
livingmyths: (Crazy hair blue)
I'm glad I live near a river!

I'm clean - if rather wet and cold - and I have plenty of water to drink.

I think Mat would agree that beer and I just don't get along well!
livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
This has been a very strange week. Lots of good things and not so good things. I've been so happy I danced with joy and so panicked that I hid for hours in a - I don't know what the place is called - before I could crawl out from under the thing and go home.

And I haven't been cursed, which is even stranger. Not that I think that will last for long.

I kind of wished I could have seen how things would have been different if something had changed in my life. But maybe I'm better off not knowing.

Mat? I'm not sure if I'll make it home tonight. I'm up on the roof of the Library and it's just so beautiful I might stay.

Tony? Thank you for bringing me to the carnival!

Thomas? I'm still sorry. And I miss talking to you.

Abby? Do you want to come have a picnic with me in the woods sometime?

Anyone who's reading? The stars are so beautiful tonight. You should go out and sit and watch them for a while. They'll make you feel better!
livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
I didn't eat any of those candy hearts yesterday and after seeing what happened on the Network I'm glad. I wouldn't really want to accidentally find out people's secrets. If they want me to know, that's fine, but not that way.

I do wonder now, though, if anyone got a secret about me. I don't think I really have many. There isn't much really only one thing that I wouldn't tell people if they asked me.

Tony? How are you? I've been thinking about you and hoping you're doing all right.

Mat? I have kind of a silly question for you later if you're around.

Oooh! And I'll be 23 soon. Doesn't that sound like a really nice number?
livingmyths: (Sexy shy)
Seems I have lost all of my clothes once more. I'm glad that this time I'm at home and hadn't spent the night in the Library!

Still, it's a bit disconcerting.

Though... I suppose it could be a very good excuse to stretch out in the front of the house in the bright sun and sunbathe in the nude, right?

Or take a long and luxurious bath and then sun myself?

I could be like a cat, just curled up in a warm sunny place all day!
livingmyths: (Thoughtful grey)
I'm glad I did not turn into a boy yesterday. I don't think I would have liked it very much at all. I was torn between laughing and feeling so sorry for people on the Network yesterday. I hope everyone is back to themselves and feeling better.

I know I'm happy. I have two wonderful jobs and wonderful friends and a wonderful housemate and the most ever wonderful home I could ever imagine. I've been here almost eight months and they've been the best eight months that I think I've had since my mother... well, since then.

If I was in a myth or a legend, there would have been a prophecy. You know, like 'In the middle of her 22nd year the chosen one will live in a place of true myths, inside a hill, a place where gods still walk the streets, and there she will...' whatever great thing it is the chosen one is supposed to accomplish.

But I don't think I have much to accomplish.

Though there are some questions I would like to have answers to.

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