0110: Library

[livingmyths]

I'm back at the Library today. Sorry I've been away for so long. I missed it a lot.

I think it's happy to have me back.

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Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Tony frowned a bit at seeing her react like that, he had never wanted to hurt her.

"Can I tell you a story, Rain?" he asked.

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

"I..." Rain swallowed and shook her head. "I'm not much for stories right now. I should just... Mat will be expecting me home soon."

She still couldn't move or even pick up her head to look at him.

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"I had a friend, back home," Tony said, leaning against one of the bookshelves.

"Pepper Potts. She was my assistant, but she was a close friend too. And I liked her, a lot, and she knew it too. But she liked this other guy, Happy Hogan. Happy was my best friend. Part of it hurt to see them together, but... it's what they wanted. And I had to see them together for years. But you know what? It never changed that Pepper was my friend, and a very close friend."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

"I'm glad she was your friend," Rain said dully. She didn't want to think about any of this, not any at all. And she knew she wasn't what Tony wanted. He didn't need to remind her. She already knew she wasn't any good.

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"And you know what?" he continued. "She's closer to me than anyone else ever was."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

"I'm happy for you," Rain managed. She knew he was being sincere and that he wanted to help, but she just felt too embarrassed to even look up.

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Tony was silent for a moment. This was all a big mistake, Rain apparently didn't want to see him and he didn't want to pressure her and make her uncomfortable.

"Well, that's all I wanted to say," he said, standing up straight. "Have a good day."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

She looked up at him - just a quick glance up and then down again. "I'm sorry," she said very softly. "I didn't mean to. And I'll stop. I don't know how, but I will."

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"Rain, I don't want you to stop unless you want to," he told her, wanting to step forward. "I just want my friend back in my life, I really miss her."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

"I miss you, too," Rain said, sounding miserable. "But it's wrong and I shouldn't and I didn't ever ever ever want you to know."

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"What's wrong?" he asked, finally taking a step forward. "And it doesn't have to change anything."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

"I shouldn't feel that way," she said very softly.

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"You can't always help your feelings," Tony said, shrugging a bit. "I don't mind that you feel that way."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

"I do," she whispered.

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"Then I'm sorry," he told her. "I wish it was different."

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Rain shook her head. "Doesn't matter."

She was quiet for a moment. "Sorry I didn't come to work."

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

"It's alright," he told her. He had hoped that he would be able to make things better with her, but apparently that wasn't going to happen, which saddened him.

"Take as much time off as you need," he said, turning to go.

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

But it was better. She'd talked to him and she hadn't run or cried or been unable to speak. And he hadn't been mad or scolded her or told her she was stupid or that he never wanted to see her again.

It would just take time.

"Tell... tell Iron Man I miss him and that I'm sorry to him, too, okay?" she said quietly.

Iron Man was still safer and still often somehow separate to her.

Re: Action for the 15th

[morethanasuit.livejournal.com]

Tony glanced over his shoulder at her and nodded. At least that was something, even if it wasn't quite the resolution he was hoping for.

"I'll be sure to do that," he said before turning back and heading out of the library.

Re: Action for the 15th

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Rain watched him go, then sat abruptly down on the floor and covered her head with her arms. She rocked herself there for a while as the Library quietly sang to her.