livingmyths | 085: Confusion

Entry tags:

085: Confusion

The rain is starting to go away. I kind of feel like I'm going away too. My head at least. Maybe I just need to sleep more. I do feel awfully tired. I think I'm not sleeping too well. Too many things running around loose in my head.

Private to Thomas, but very hackable

Thomas? I need your help maybe. Can you talk to me here?

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Rain. We need to talk.

[ooc: Mind if Romana hacks that convo with Thomas? She's been slowly figuring some things out...also, bit of a placeholder...eep.]

Edited 2009-04-25 02:05 (UTC)

Romana?

You shouldn't come here. They might be here.

I can hear them in my head.

Rain - they're not there. They're just in your head, they're not real.

Right now, maybe, but they could be coming.

Rain...I really don't think they are.

I'm so scared, Romana. I tried everything and I can't shut out anything in my head anymore.

All I can hear and see and think about is the bad men.

We'll fix it...I'll fix it.

I'm so sorry Rain. This is all my fault, how could I be so careless?

You didn't make them come.

You didn't even know my mommy.

Not the ones from your past, no, but the ones you feel now - I'm afraid that was the result of my arrogance.

No, but I know you loved her very much.

Don't say bad things about yourself. You're my friend and you're helping me.

Yes. And bad bad things happened to her and my daddy said that bad man or ones like him would come do the same thing to me because it should have been me anyway.

I should have thought this through more, I usually think things through more before I start them. If I had I could have realized...this isn't helping you Rain. You're hurting and you deserve so much better.

...what a horrible thing for him to say. No child should hear those things.

But it is. I felt so much better. I could look at things I never did before.

He... he wasn't a very nice man.

But dearest, you were talking about...hurting yourself the other day, and that's not good.

He certainly doesn't seem it.

Only if they come to get me. So they can't hurt me the way the Bad Man hurt my mommy.

No. I still kind of love him, but he scares me and I hope I never see him again. I ran away when I was old enough.

I...oh, Rain...

You were on your own then, weren't you?

I was all alone.

How awful.

I don't want them to get me, Romana.

They won't Rain, I swear they won't.

Thomas said he'd help.

Your friend, Thomas? Is he on his way over there - you shouldn't be alone.

Yes.

He shouldn't, but he's coming.

Why...why shouldn't he go over there, Rain?

Because part of him wants to feed on me, but he's trying not to.

But he won't hurt me. It will just hurt him. But he says if he comes it will help me.

...wants to feed on you?

[Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]