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livingmyths) wrote2009-12-06 01:16 pm
livingmyths) wrote2009-12-06 01:16 pm
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0119: And More Loss
Mat's gone.
He went out for a ride and didn't come back and didn't contact me or anything, so I went to the Hall and he's really, really gone. I guess the horse went with him because she didn't come back either.
I... I don't know what to do. All my house is memories of Mat and Tony. Part of me wants to go away and leave it and never come back again and another part wants never to leave it even for a minute because maybe there they'll stay more real.
Who will hold me when I sleep at night and make me feel safe and tell me I'm special? I loved Mat so very very much, more than I ever dared tell him.
I feel... I feel very small and lost.
He went out for a ride and didn't come back and didn't contact me or anything, so I went to the Hall and he's really, really gone. I guess the horse went with him because she didn't come back either.
I... I don't know what to do. All my house is memories of Mat and Tony. Part of me wants to go away and leave it and never come back again and another part wants never to leave it even for a minute because maybe there they'll stay more real.
Who will hold me when I sleep at night and make me feel safe and tell me I'm special? I loved Mat so very very much, more than I ever dared tell him.
I feel... I feel very small and lost.
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I can hear what people think sometimes.
[She dropped her hand and looked rather shy.]
I try not to, but sometimes I do accidentally. And I can hear animals too sometimes.
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That's cool! It's like, your superpower or somethin'
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Cool? Really.
I... gosh, I don't think it's a superpower or something. Those are for heros and important people, not people like me.
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Oh, it totally is like the X-Men, or that fishy guy from Hellboy, Abe. Or Aquaman... well, not him with people so much, but sea creatures, yeah.
It's totally a superpower.
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But I'm just Rain!
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[He considers, that kinda sucks.]
Maybe not that, but maybe I can think of somethin' better for later.
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Just Rain. Nothing else, nothing super.
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[But he was totally going to be up late considering her options. Why couldn't he have superpowers... or, just... power - 'stead of being like he was, he could be cool like Stephen.]
You like Rex? Was he a good surprise?
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He was a very good surprise, Connor. Thank you.
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[He thought about what he said for a minute.]
The, um, type that liked cute animals, I mean.
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[Her voice was earnest.]
Even if they're not cute. But I do like Rex. I've never seen anything like him before.
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Is he very lonely?
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I dunno. Doesn't seem it. Always flyin' around the flat, playin' with Abby. Seems okay to me.
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Well... okay, then.
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[Now Connor's worried, not only did he accidently kidnap Rex to a pocket dimension, but he made the little bugger unhappy. Abby was going to KILL him.]
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[Now she was worried she'd upset him.]
No, he didn't say anything. I guess I was just thinking how I'd feel.
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[Connor scratched his head.]
Guess I'd be pretty sad, all alone with none of my mates around. But... he's made new mates. Me an' Abby, her other pet lizards...
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[Rain's voice was cautious as she tried to see if the little guy was okay. He seemed to be.]
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[Connor smiled.]
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Oh, I don't know. I like him, but he likes you best.
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He does? That's... right nice to hear.
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He definitely does.
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[He grabbed one of the treats, and tossed in the air for Rex to catch.]
You're pretty cool, too, Rex.
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