085: Confusion

[livingmyths]

The rain is starting to go away. I kind of feel like I'm going away too. My head at least. Maybe I just need to sleep more. I do feel awfully tired. I think I'm not sleeping too well. Too many things running around loose in my head.


Private to Thomas, but very hackable

Thomas? I need your help maybe. Can you talk to me here?

Comments

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Rain...I don't think...it's a very good idea for me, right now.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Because you're good again?

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Because I'm confused enough without eating friends.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I don't want to confuse you or hurt you.

Don't worry about it then.

The roof will be okay.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

You want to use me as an escape?

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I... I guess? I didn't mean it to be that, though - not to use you.

Just...

I know you want to feed on me and feed on me and feed on me and this way you can.

And they won't be able to have me.

But if you don't want to, I have to be able to escape. And I'd rather jump and be dead than let them hurt me like that. My daddy told me what it would be like and... I'm scared.

So so very scared.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

I meant between now and...and when the bad men come for you.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh. No.

I just... I know you wanted it and I thought if you would help me, then I could repay you like that. I won't be able to after.

I mean, I know it would feel good, but no, that's not why.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Then, why?

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Because it's all I have to offer you.

And after - after, I'll never be able to do anything for you again.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Rain, you talk to me, like I'm just a person. That's plenty.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

You are just a person.

Re: filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

So many people don't see that. You do.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I can't stay and keep reminding you.

I'm so sorry, Thomas.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Rain...why do you think the bad men are coming?

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I can... I can hear them. They're everywhere in my head.

Like all my head is them, everywhere.

And I can see him and hear my daddy and see everything - all the bad and scary things and...

Thomas, I can't - I'm too scared. I can't make my head stop and there're voices and it hurts and I just... I can't feel safe. Not even in my house.

I need to hide somewhere.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Stay there. I'm coming.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Thomas?

But it will hurt you.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

No. It will help you.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Okay.

If you're sure.

I'm hiding in my bedroom.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

I'll be there soon. They won't do anything when I'm around.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Okay.

Hurry then?

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Already halfway.

Re: filtered;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

You're very very fast, Thomas. I didn't know you were so fast.

filtered;

[prodigalvampire]

Very.