0119: And More Loss

[livingmyths]

Mat's gone.

He went out for a ride and didn't come back and didn't contact me or anything, so I went to the Hall and he's really, really gone. I guess the horse went with him because she didn't come back either.

I... I don't know what to do. All my house is memories of Mat and Tony. Part of me wants to go away and leave it and never come back again and another part wants never to leave it even for a minute because maybe there they'll stay more real.

Who will hold me when I sleep at night and make me feel safe and tell me I'm special? I loved Mat so very very much, more than I ever dared tell him.

I feel... I feel very small and lost.

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[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

Good boy. Good, good boy.

[The bag gives another twitch and Connor moves his arm over it with a sheepish smile.]

So, I have, um, somethin' to show you - but can we go somewhere warm?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Rain nodded and stood up carefully, leaving Gage to trail at her feet. She pointed at the little house built into the hill.]

That's my house.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Connor's eyes widened, he honestly hadn't noticed it before.]

That's yours? S'cool! But most people end up in those apartments an' the like, how'd you end up out here?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She smiled a little sadly.]

My friend, Tony, made it for me. Because I'm scared to be inside houses and he didn't want to to be sleeping outside all winter.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Cconor nearly facepalmed - because, yeah, wasn't Tony the name of the other guy who just left her? Nice, Connor, real smooth.]

It's fantastic - beautiful.

[He headed of toward it, still clutching the bag close to him.]

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Rain followed him, Gage trailing at her heels.]

It is. And the roof is all clear so I can watch the stars at night.

[She hesitated at the entrance, not sure she wanted to go in, then swallowed hard and entered.]

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Connor paused, letting Rain have the time she needed, trying not to shift on his feet too much. He followed her in, letting out a low whistle.]

Your friend was a right genius, this is, like, perfect.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

He was.

[Her eyes were sad. She made her way over to one of the comfy chairs and sat down, curling her feet up underneath her.]

You can look around if you like. Or sit and make yourself comfortable.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

That door's shut tight, right?

[Connor didn't wait for the nod, but set the bag gingerly on the floor, opening it. There was a strange chirping sound and then a green blur (http://i154.photobucket.com/albums/s261/ravenrants/Poly/Connor/2Primeval_rex_1.jpg) launched out, flying around the ceiling before settling on the table, and staring at him.]

Oi! Don't look at me like that, Rex - we're here for Rain.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Rain's eyes went huge and she instictively held onto Gage.]

What is that?

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Connor smiled reassuringly, feeling kinda bad that he'd apparently just scared the person he was trying to cheer up.]

That's Rex, m'pet. Well, Abby's pet, but she's not here and he is so he's kinda- never mind. He's a dinosaur, like that used to live a long time ago, but he's really friendly - see?

[He pulled a treat out of his bag and offered to Rex, who with a few more chirps glided down to take the treat from his fingers.]

You wanna try?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She wasn't scared, just awed, and worried that Gage might go after the... the dinosaur. She nodded, eyes still wide.]

Yes, please. I'd like that.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Connor handed her the treats.]

Go on, then, he might nip your fingertips a little, but it don't hurt.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Rain carefully held out the treats for Rex, hoping he'd take them from her.]

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Rex is chill for a dinosaur, so he takes the treat. Hesitantly, but he takes it. He backs up, chirps, backs up some more, then takes a few steps forward looking at Rain like he's thinking... "Please, sir, can I have some more?"]

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Rain turned to look at Connor, eyes wide.]

He wants more. I can hear him.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[Connor recognizes the hungry look, so he hands over the bag of treats with Rex watching it every inch of the way. But- what was that she said?]

What d'you mean, you can hear 'im?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She held out another treat for Rex, watching him with awe.]

I can hear what people think sometimes.

[She dropped her hand and looked rather shy.]

I try not to, but sometimes I do accidentally. And I can hear animals too sometimes.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[He grins, that's cool.]

That's cool! It's like, your superpower or somethin'

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She tilts her head, looking at him curiously.]

Cool? Really.

I... gosh, I don't think it's a superpower or something. Those are for heros and important people, not people like me.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

[He's smiling and nodding, entering geek mode, beware...]

Oh, it totally is like the X-Men, or that fishy guy from Hellboy, Abe. Or Aquaman... well, not him with people so much, but sea creatures, yeah.

It's totally a superpower.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[Now she was looking at him wide-eyed and astonished.]

But I'm just Rain!

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

Rain with a superpower. Super Rain!

[He considers, that kinda sucks.]

Maybe not that, but maybe I can think of somethin' better for later.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

[She's shaking her head.]

Just Rain. Nothing else, nothing super.

[itsnoteveryday.livejournal.com]

Suit yourself.

[But he was totally going to be up late considering her options. Why couldn't he have superpowers... or, just... power - 'stead of being like he was, he could be cool like Stephen.]

You like Rex? Was he a good surprise?