livingmyths | 085: Confusion

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085: Confusion

The rain is starting to go away. I kind of feel like I'm going away too. My head at least. Maybe I just need to sleep more. I do feel awfully tired. I think I'm not sleeping too well. Too many things running around loose in my head.

Private to Thomas, but very hackable

Thomas? I need your help maybe. Can you talk to me here?

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Help? What's up?

There... well... there might be bad men here and if they are I want you to do me a favor.

Because they can't get me. I won't let them.

...what bad men?

They...

The ones...

The bad ones.

Look... I don't exactly know, but they might be here and if they are... well, they'll hurt me, Thomas.

It's so wet I haven't been at the Library. If I was there I could use the roof, but here.

I want you to make sure they can't get me. I know if you do it, it won't hurt.

You want me to...what exactly are you insinuating?

Would you... would you feed on me?

Till I'm all gone?

If they come?

Empty Night, Rain! Do you even know what you're saying?

...

Yes. I think so.

It would feel good if you did that.

Jumping off the roof would hurt a lot.

Rain...

Please help me, Thomas.

I know you want to feed on me. You told me so. In your dream.

And you wouldn't need to take everything, not unless they came. You could have whatever else you wanted until then.

Thomas? Do you remember what they did to my mother? They'll do worse to me if they find me.

Uh, no. I don't remember, Rain. Remind me.

They, they... He. He hurt her. He hurt her, Thomas. He, I didn't know what it was till later, but he, he raped her.

And then he killed her. She was screaming and screaming and she told me to run and hide in the woods and never come out and I did, but my daddy said that proved how bad I was and that the bad men were going to come and do the same thing to me someday and I think they're here.

I can hear them in my head, Thomas, and I'm scared. I don't want - I can't let them get me. I'll do anything to make sure they can't.

Rain...I...okay.

Oh, God, thank you so much, Thomas! Thank you.

I'll do anything you want to thank you, anything. Until they come at least.

That won't be necessary, Rain. I mean...what are friends for, right?

But you want...

I know you do.

Or am I wrong?

I do, yes. Of course, I do.

Then you can.

I don't mind.

And once there here you won't have another chance.

Rain...I don't think...it's a very good idea for me, right now.

Because you're good again?

Because I'm confused enough without eating friends.

I'm sorry. I don't want to confuse you or hurt you.

Don't worry about it then.

The roof will be okay.

You want to use me as an escape?

I... I guess? I didn't mean it to be that, though - not to use you.

Just...

I know you want to feed on me and feed on me and feed on me and this way you can.

And they won't be able to have me.

But if you don't want to, I have to be able to escape. And I'd rather jump and be dead than let them hurt me like that. My daddy told me what it would be like and... I'm scared.

So so very scared.

I meant between now and...and when the bad men come for you.

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