livingmyths: (Listening intently)
livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-05-31 06:00 pm

095: River not Rain

I decided I am going to stay out by the river for a while longer, because I'm going to be River for a while instead of Rain, so I should watch myself a little more.

People can still come visit if they want. I'm not so hard to find.

Mat, if you're around I hope your friend is doing better.

Thomas, if you want to come watch the stars one night...

I think... I think being River for a while will be good for me. They're both water, but River sort of stays put even as she moves all over.

Anyway... just didn't want people to worry.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Why the name change?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Because I don't want to be me for a little while. I need to be someone else before I can be me again.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 10:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure I understand, would you like to talk about it?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Sure, I guess. What don't you understand?
Edited 2009-05-31 22:19 (UTC)

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Why don't you want to be yourself?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Because I don't like the things I found out about myself. I don't want to be that person, so I need to be someone else for a while.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Like what? I think you're a great person the way you are. But if there are things you don't like about yourself you should work on those rather then trying to be somebody else completely.

Note the skillful non-answer

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
But if I'm someone else than I can look at Rain and see what needs to be different. Or try being different myself.

Kitty's too upset with her own problems to push too hard x.x

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
If that's what you want to do. Just be sure not to loose yourself okay?

Re: Kitty's too upset with her own problems to push too hard x.x

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Are you okay, Kitty?

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. I'm more concerned with you anyway.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh gosh, I'm fine. I just... need to be different for a bit.

It's not the first time I've done this.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Good, I'm glad your fine. It took me a long time to figure myself out and sometimes I still have times when I question who I am. So if you need anything let me know.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Kitty. And if you ever need anything just let me know.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-31 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
You're welcome.

You can come visit me at the river if you want.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-06-01 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
I may do that but I think I need alone time.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-06-01 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
I can understand that. That's a big part of why I'm here.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-06-01 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
Alone time is nice sometimes isn't it?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-06-01 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
Very. Too many people makes my head hurt.