095: River not Rain

[livingmyths]

I decided I am going to stay out by the river for a while longer, because I'm going to be River for a while instead of Rain, so I should watch myself a little more.

People can still come visit if they want. I'm not so hard to find.

Mat, if you're around I hope your friend is doing better.

Thomas, if you want to come watch the stars one night...

I think... I think being River for a while will be good for me. They're both water, but River sort of stays put even as she moves all over.

Anyway... just didn't want people to worry.

Comments

voice;

[allshesgotsir.livejournal.com]

Rain isnae yer name, then?

Re: voice;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Usually it is, yes. But for right now, no. Right now, I'm River.

voice;

[allshesgotsir.livejournal.com]

So, Rain is yer proper name, but fer the time bein' yer River, dae I ken ye proper, lass?

Re: voice;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Rain, well... Rain is the name the ancestors gave me when I went on a Vision Quest when I was... about 13 or 14.

But it's me.

Except yes, for the time being I'm River.

[prodigalvampire]

When things calm down, sure.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

How is your friend?

[prodigalvampire]

Worrisome. I haven't heard from her in a couple of days.

Not to mention...I'm way more screwed up than I thought, Ra...River.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Oh dear.

What's wrong, Thomas? You know I won't judge.

Kitty see's this and worries, yes she does.

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Why the name change?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Because I don't want to be me for a little while. I need to be someone else before I can be me again.

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure I understand, would you like to talk about it?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Sure, I guess. What don't you understand?

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

River it is, then. Do you need anything brought to you?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

No. I have everything I need here. Thank you, Romana.

[lady-wandering.livejournal.com]

That's good then. Are you feeling any more... settled?

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I think River will be.

Private;

[horrible-phd.livejournal.com]

Um, coincidentally, I'm going to be Billy from now on. I think it'll help me be a better friend to someone I care about.

Re: Private;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

For good or just for a while like me with River?

Re: Private;

[horrible-phd.livejournal.com]

For good, I think. I mean, that's the plan, though it'll be different once I go back home.

Re: Private;

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

Then I'll try to remember to call you Billy. I hope it helps.

[bloodygoodluck.livejournal.com]

She's probably as good as she's going to get for now. I'm coming home.

For what it's worth? I think I'm going to stick with calling you Rain.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

I'm glad. I missed you so much. I didn't know it would be so hard to have you gone.

Why don't you want to call me River?

[bloodygoodluck.livejournal.com]

I'll be around now.

It was Rain that showed me that there was someone who could accept all of me.

[livingmyths.livejournal.com]

...

You're going to make me cry, Mat.

You are very special and you should be accepted just as you are. All of you. There's nothing about you I don't love.