Living Amid the Myths

Tony's gone and Luke is gone and Leia and Mr. Winchester and... It's just...

It's not fair. Finally the ancestors let me have friends and then they take them away?

I know life isn't fair and I know things happen and there's nothing you can do and you need to just stop whining and get over them, but...

This hurts.

I never had friends before and maybe now I don't want any anymore if this is what is going to happen.

I can't go back to the beautiful house Tony and my other friends made for me. Not now.

Maybe later I'll be able to look at it and remember good things, but right now it would just be too painful.

Are any of my friends still here?

I was just heading home when I read that there had been an attack in the forest and everyone should be careful, so I thought maybe I better not go home.

Just telling people so no one will be worried. I'll stay in the Library or maybe up on the roof so I'm still with the stars.

I found a dead hummingbird today. It kind of makes me worried because hummingbirds are sort of magical, you know? They bring open hearts and joy and help create families and the death of one - well that kind of suggests sadness and grief and the closing off of hearts and that Bad Things are coming.

I set it out carefully on a bed of leaves and left a red flower by it so it would be comfortable as it moves on and sang to it, but I still feel sad.